It's Okay to Fear

Fears can be a driving force or a hindering force.

Fears range from anything from rejection to flying but it does not change its significance.

Fears are inside all of us and are just another part to being human.

I believe that fears are something more people should be willing to accept rather than being embarrassed about. We all have different reactions to certain things so it is not something you should compare with others because the scale is not there.

Falling was and is my biggest fear to this day for reasons I just can’t explain.

I figured this out on the first time I ever went on rollercoasters. Of course, me being a young child who saw rollercoasters on television, I wanted to ride them. When I finally had the opportunity to, I nearly ran away. These giant, loud, and threatening rides were much more than I was expecting.

Immediately after deciding not to risk my life on a ride, my siblings convince to go on one. Wanting to fit in, I decided to go on one.

Then I got over my fear! is what I wished happened.

Life does not work that easily and after my first ride, I was scared out of my mind, but it still gave me encouragement or just a push to go on more. That was probably the biggest mistake I made that day.

After going on a few rides, I saw the villain of my story and it was one I could see from a mile away. My sweat started turning cold and my stomach curled into a ball as I saw the tallest ride. Survival instincts kicked in as I begged my sister to let me not get on the ride but I was too deep in. Dipping my toes into this water ended up throwing me headfirst into the ocean. After getting on the ride, feeling the waves, I knew this was the moment where I would drown.

The ride stops right before the drop as I look down straight at hundreds of visitors, I wanted to be one of those people who fainted on a ride just so I could wake up and get off. My fate was much worse than that though. As my mind bullied me, the drop was happening and I just wanted to disappear. My stomach ended up having the same message as I did as we both wanted to escape. Only, one of us got to escape.

The most embarrassing thing was seeing all the reactions after I got off the ride. Everyone disgusted as my stomach painted the ride. Never did I think I would get scared enough for my body to betray me but we both learned something new that day.

Not everyone knows where their fears come from, and that’s okay! That does not mean that you should be embarrassed about it though. Use my story as an example of underestimating your own fear.

Do not force yourself into situations because you, or anyone else undermines your fear. It is okay to take things at your own pace until you feel comfortable.

Own your fear and do not let it own you, as then, you can create your own limits.